For the past few days, I have been thinking about our situation. What had went wrong and why I am turning cold towards you. I felt that given your current state, a lot of care and concern needed to pour in. I just felt tired every time you turn to a hysterical condition. I felt exhausted when I struggled to make you feel better.
It’s really heart pain to see you in this state. I am not lying and I hope you trust me. Since day one, I never cheated you. I really don’t want to ‘Hai’ you further. Because of my impatient attitude, your emotional started to swift up and down.
Our relationship started in an unofficial manner. Through out this period, I tried to adapt your way of living. Sometimes I felt really xing fu if nothing goes wrong. A simple day out there can really content me one way or another. On the other hand, I started to grow frustration every time you turn depressed. I am not trying to push all the blame on you and I know it’s totally not your fault. It’s about me, I don’t have the amount of quality to see you through as I am not patient, I admitted. Don’t blame yourself please and be optimistic okie?
I know you tried and I can see your effort. But are you in the correct frame of mind to be in a relationship? I asked myself, whether you can handles the ups and downs of emotional through the relationship. The answer is uncertain. I failed to understand your point of view on certain time, things doesn’t seem to compromise. Remember that we need both hand to clap, it’s not your fault.
In life’s, there are so much things to look forward to. Remember by being happy is your choice. If you want to feel happy, no one can stop you. Recover from your sickness and I will be there if you need someone to talk to. Just be friends for now. I hope to see you smile again. Stay cheerful okie?
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